Moments catch me off guard! I can't ignore them and I can't escape them. I often think about the time lost to silence. When I didn't here your laugh or you were just too weak to respond. Apart of me wants to take back the time and make you speak but I know that can't happen. The wishes of past opportunities missed and whispers of what if's still get me. I miss you! Reality never hit me that you were really gone and I refused to look at you at rest so I wouldn't have to accept it. But it's almost been a year now and reality is screaming because I haven't heard your voice. Its real now!!! But I'll shed tears in joy knowing that the girls are ok and your mom and dad have peace. But also because when I think of you all I can do is smile. You were a laughter that made everything else fade away... and you still are! You shall forever be apart of my journey to becoming a loving, humble, forgiving, and caring woman. I love you girl!